I have had one of those weeks/months/years that really test you. I suppose that I pictured my life being a little different as I approached thirty. I don't even have a cat, I always thought I would have at least one cat when I grew up. Turns out I might like dogs more. I know that most girls/women have issues with their self image, with their confidence, I know I am no different...nor should I expect to be.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that it will all be okay. I have been here before; I have lost love, lost friends, felt down about myself, felt alone, doubted my decisions. In all these instance I have come out okay, many times better than I was before. That's the great thing about life and experience. It teaches us that nothing that happens is truly "the end of our lives". We are survivors, we overcome, and we move forward. It doesn't mean we don't glance at the past from time to time and wish things had gone differently, but it means we don't dwell on the past so much that we miss the life we are living here and now.
I may not feel as good/happy/optimistic right now as I have in the past, but I know that those feelings are on the horizon. They are coming, I just have to keep working on "now" so I can get there. And if I didn't have down days - how would I know how to recognize the exceptional days?
The video below is one that I saw in Institute one evening. The best part - it's called "Jessica's Affirmations" (if the link doesn't work - look it up on YouTube - it's worth it). I needed a smile so I watched the video again today and a thought occurred to me. What kind of person would I be if I did this every morning (maybe not as exuberantly as this little girl)? Certainly my life would be a little better everyday if I woke up and thought of just a handful of things that I love.
So that's what I am going to do - for the next week I'm going to try it out and see how it goes.
Enjoy the video - that kid is great.