Thursday, January 7, 2010

Fingerpainting?*

Today I woke up at 5:25. I just woke up and again, like yesterday morning, I just sat there. I did the math in my head, I shouldn't have woken up because I hadn't had 8 hours of sleep. I tried to remember if I had a nightmare and maybe that's why I was awake, but nothing. The only thing I can really remember is that it was cold, but I was too cold to even roll over and turn the space heater back on.

Today I didn't even try to think of things I could do to work out so early in the morning and so cold that I felt certain that even inside I would be able to see my breath. Today I tried to go back to sleep. I told myself that playing basketball tonight counts as working out, so there's no need to do it twice in one day. I eventually got myself back to sleep, but when I woke up again I wished I had the gusto to do more.

It's like, a week ago, I was hanging out with my friend, Mike. I told him that one of my New Year's resolutions was to be less lazy (note: not more productive, just less lazy than I am). He smiled and said, "No one keeps New Years resolutions." I smiled back, and then stopped smiling because there were a couple meanings there. I could twist his words in so many directions that I didn't even know where to start. First reaction - "You calling me lazy?!" Second - did he just not believe that I could do it? Am I lazy passed the point of no return? And he, a friend of not even a year has already noticed it? I don't know how he meant it, because it's not like I needed the comfort of knowing that no one keeps their resolutions, it was the beginning of the year. Even a sarcastic, "good luck with that" would have been better. Then we get to mornings like yesterday and today where I get up early, like I wanted, but stay in bed and I think, "He's right, we're 7 days in to 2010 and he's already right." My only comfort is that by waking up at these forsaken hours is less lazy then I was in 2009...so - in your face!

Maybe this week will be waking up early, and next week will be getting out of bed early...because I have learned that there is a difference.

In other news, my dad got back to me with some estimates and I think I am ready to talk offers with Realtor Carol. I called her on my lunch break but she was with clients...other clients? It's like finding out you aren't the only girl in some guy's life. Hit to the stomach. She said she would call me later today to discuss. And that's your daily update on that.

Addendum: I just looked over to the side and realized I have 30 followers. Hallelujah!

4 comments:

Amber Lanae- said...

*The Cutting Edge!

AuntKatween said...

oh, my brain went to happy gilmore. Guess I am wrong. I am slow at getting to read the blogs anyway.

MoreThanMyOwnLife said...

Hahaha. You show him! Awesome on getting up early. I struggle just to get up on time. 8)

Hope you hear good news about the house!

Sarah said...

ok first of all, he is a guy, and most guys dont' think things through before them, nor do they think too much about them.
I would take that as well if you don't accomplish your goal, here is an excuse.
on the other hand, if you need motivation to actually be less lazy then take his comment the other way and prove him wrong. proving a point can become good motivation. :)

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