"I'll be the victim!", "All of your life."*

Something is wrong, I have been very antsy lately.


A few weeks ago everyone at church kept commenting on how something was different about me...but I hadn't changed anything. I mean, I was putting on the smile more, but that was it. I guess a smile does a lot though. Since then a lot has changed. I chopped off my hair one day because I was fed up with life and needed a change. Now I am going to dye my hair. I have few options left for the "need a change" feeling that comes on. I can rearrange my room (which I won't cause it works well the way it is), I can buy some new clothes (which technically I have done more in the past month then I did all last year)...uh...crap...out of ideas. Once I dye my hair what is left? What will I do? I've been thinking about it, I would like to do free things (like rearranging the room or chopping off my hair) but some of this will cost money.

• I could channel my angst into painting my bathroom (finally)


• I could pick up a hobby (any advice for a non-musical, no dancey, unhandy, no bueno crafty, individual?)


• I could throw myself into working out, cause what's the harm in doing THAT? Ouch, I almost hurt my head throwing it back so quickly to laugh in derisive amusement, like I could ever throw myself into working out a lot. ...I'd rather shave my head...then paint it.


• I could finally read the 58 books on my bookshelf that are screaming to be read already...but last night I picked about four of them up and could only read a few pages before deciding to just go to bed early.

I need help folks. What do you guys do when you are in a funk and need a change?